What do you do when you achieve all you set out to?
Undo it, of course. 

I've been running hard and fast for so long, that I don't remember what it's like to live life without blur lines.

I relocated to Georgia from New England in 2011 - in just under 10 days I was packed up and on the road racing towards a job I knew next to nothing about, to a town I had never heard of, into a house I had never seen in person. Adventure, my friends. Why not?

And that's how it was, for awhile. An adventure. I tried new things - places, foods, DIY activities, lighting the burner on the water heater without burning the place down. I wrote a blog, volunteered for a local news outlet, joined yoga classes, made new friends in new ways, stepped outside of my comfort zone, and learned a ton.

I was achieving all my goals, everything I ever thought I wanted. I went from Dispatcher to Director in just under 10 years, hitting every rung on the career ladder I had set out to. The promotions and the teams got bigger, and over last few years it's become a blur, piling on more while simultaneously doing less.

And then it happened - I hit a wall - hard - and I found that I couldn't just go back to the way it was, because it didn't work for me. I needed to find a new way forward.  

Sure, I nailed those professional goals, but those friends I had made - I haven't seen them in years. The fun blogs about DIY adventures, parenting, and other fun? By the time I realized there was something wrong and the site was down, it was too late to recover any of it. Yoga classes, retreats, volunteer work - it had been forever since I had done any of that. The kids are now young adults and need totally different things, and some of them even I'm not sure how to navigate, nevermind advise. I wasn't present for my family or myself, and my health and personal relationships suffered.

So here I am, trying to untangle the mess I've made and bridge the gap from where I am to where I want to be. I don't know what that looks like, but I know something has to change.

In the meantime, I'll tell you what I know for sure. My name is Jennie. I've got a beautiful wife that supports whatever I need, 3 adult children that have found brand new ways to challenge me, 4 dogs that keep the house full, and a newfound penchant for starting over - again.